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Conduct an experiment on yourself: Document stream of consciousness

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One#

Whenever I finish taking notes or reading an article, I always open FreeCell Solitaire and play a couple of games. I recently realized that this is a habit I developed while studying in NZ.

During holidays or after finishing exams and essays, I would go to Sky City and play a few rounds of Blackjack. I would exchange $20 NZD each time, which is equivalent to over 80 RMB. If I was lucky, I could play for half a day, but if luck wasn't on my side, it could be just two or three rounds.

A few days ago, Zeze saw me playing FreeCell Solitaire and asked why I would add a few extra moves to tidy up the cards when I could finish in just one move.

Before he asked me, I wasn't even aware that I had this subconscious action.

Two#

In Buddhist philosophy, there are two concepts: "karma" and "habitual tendencies."

Karma refers to the force generated by an individual's thoughts, speech, and actions. It can transcend life and death and influence a person's destiny. It is an important aspect of the law of cause and effect in Buddhism, which states that a person's actions (cause) will result in corresponding outcomes (effect). Simply put, good actions lead to good results, and bad actions lead to bad results.

Habitual tendencies, on the other hand, are usually understood as a kind of habit or habitual behavior formed by an individual through repeated actions over a long period of time. It can be either positive or negative. Positive habitual tendencies can lead to positive outcomes, while negative habitual tendencies may result in negative outcomes.

So, is the subconscious action of tidying up the cards when playing FreeCell Solitaire related to karma or habitual tendencies?

In my personal opinion, it leans more towards habitual tendencies. It is a habit I developed when I started learning to play poker and mahjong.

Three#

I have previously introduced the practice of intermittent journaling in "Practicing Intermittent Journaling with Heptabase" and "Using Intermittent Journaling to Deal with Negative Emotions". This habit of recording has been consistent since September last year.

Through these past few days of organizing, I have gradually discovered some clues, although they are not yet clear enough.

In order to understand which karma and habitual tendencies I exhibit in my daily life, I have decided to conduct an experiment - recording my stream of consciousness.

By recording my stream of consciousness for a period of time, perhaps I can have a clearer understanding. Even if the final results are not satisfactory, there are three benefits:

  1. Understanding the progress of my meditation practice.
  2. Clearing the clutter in my mind.
  3. Getting to know myself better and understanding myself.

Four#

Recording the stream of consciousness is easier said than done. This practice of recording the stream of consciousness is similar to the contemplation of bones and impurities in the Theravada Buddhist meditation method.

Therefore, the difficulty lies in recording faithfully, without modification, wording, or selection. It is important to record as much as possible of what comes to mind and appears.

For example, if explicit content comes to mind, it is simple to record, but faithfully recording it is difficult. No one wants to confront their own attachments and desires, let alone dig deep into them.

However, I have made up my mind to give it a try.

I don't know if I will be able to share the results once the experiment is complete. But at the very least, there should be a simple report on Twitter.

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